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on sunday, march the 7th you wrote:
> agf:
>i feel honoured lately
>to have respect for my work
>i hope i can continue with it
>+
>who am i or you to judge that ?
>i want respect
>i have to give respect
>no matter what
i believe so. i really do. it is the way respect should work. but i also think it's not so easy and straight when it's about personal + inner colours. you cant always be so neutral, unfortunately, and im afraid that even if you work on it over&over trying to become it, what happens is: you lose a lot. become cold. become sterile. what's missing is: equilibrium. i want balance between evil/love and intolerance/respect and beauty/horror and an endless list of bothsided_things i want it all.
>i mean i try
>ive seen it. so meaningful.
>fear is preventing beauty
>+
>thanks for your nice email.
>its one of the reasons to share
>and makes it worth it
>+
>arrogant or ignorant press sucks most
>its more and more usual. people even they get paid
>for it. not taking time to listen... and destroy the work
>by beeing bored or frustrated about themselfs
>or had a bad coffe on the bar while watching a live set
>sad
>but also this seems to be not so important
>when you work for many years on your stuff
>nobody can take it from you.
>+
>painful. sometimes yes
>to be misunderstood
>but more and more i learn
>not to take it personal
>or against me.
>i try to observe it with interest
>but not judge it no more
>+
>it would be more
>painful not to share and grow
beauty has this unbelievable power of making all the worlDisappear in front of its amazing hugeness. i smiled as i read what you wrote bout it. i smiled for i thought beautyisworthit was the only valid answer, the only thing able to make up for pain and even to turn itself into it enlighting all. buThere are people who dont care and blinded by every kind of stuff. someone should teach them how to watch or listen, i do think they need help. (and i do think a stomach_ache+ wideopen_hurtingeyes are wonderful when is beauty to cause them. and i do think everyone should feel as strongly as he can, and this is respectless. the 'i think' and the 'to me' go beyond, i dare to judge or decide what's right for someone who's not me, whose head im not into. and so: same problem, theorically firsThing is respect, but often too hard to practise.)
>thanks for the nice words about me
>i believe everybody is the same inside
>and the potential
>which is available in everybodies life
>its just very hard to pull it out
not everybody's clean. children are. then they grow up absorbing good and bad. their nucleus changes, sometimes they even start ignoring the inborn and assume another shape coming from outside. i think.
potential=available. it is yes. it's just very hard to pull it out. it is yes. and to use it correctly and not to do harm with it and sorry for thiSo messy email, it's full of knots and not upright, plus im pretty sleepy and tired. i'll see you in rome next week. goodnight.